Final Decision - Cameron Highlands

Finally we had decided to choose Cameron Highlands as our honeymoon destination..Hooray. He is the organizer for this trip and me volunteer as a driver. We browsing websites to get more information as possible and as for myself scanning for more maps and the decide which route to be taken to Cameron Highlands.

My babe are concerning in booking hotel and lucky that days is not categorised as a peak season and easily he had booked the ticket and the hotel is not so costly. Now come to me either take the Simpang Pulai or Tapah path to the destination.

After my babe advise, we decided to take the Tapah path because we can had our breakfast at there because according to him the food at Tapah is quite sucelent and delicious. Our journey must be very long and I needed to take rest but somehow today I'm too happy and can't wait for the tomorrow trip and ended up not sleeping well for the entire night...Anyway I will be away for honeymoon.

Planning For Vacation

For this coming Thaipusam Festival me and my hubby had decided to have a honeymoon vacation for a short trip around Malaysia. We are yet to decide, which place we decided to pick. But after a few discussion we do has few places in our mind. There are three choices in total for the places we decided to pick, Cameron Highlands, Genting Highlands and Port Dickson to choose.

We do assume a lot of speculation and mainly due to the budget because my paycheck is overload for this month after spend like no tomorrow previously. Both of us, me and my honey are surfed net to get the best destination that we can get for this replacement honeymoon after a lot of hanky panky stuff had happen during our third anniversaries.

But, the most important things is I'm just too craving for him by my side, which is the most pathetic stuff that happen in our life. Being in the closet and hiding our self among family and friends indeed giving us hell a lot of problem. The problem is getting worse if we are staying with our parent in the first place and there are too many negative impact to the gay life.

In reality life is just too cruel and dramatic especially, when you decided to live your life differently than the norm. Discrimination and bias is definitely will occur in the first place and worse stilt there all despite you with the look that can killed and treated you like an aliens.Let me give you a good example during the times I brought a watch at a store for my babe.

At first the sales person asked me is it I brought it for my friend and I said yes with my babe accompany me. Few days later we finally decided to brought the watch and when my babe are trying the watch that we choose, the said person asked me a foolish question until I almost wanted to scold her fuck off. The question sound like this " I thought you brought the watch for your friend?" Later I told her my babe is the friend I mentioned and just because she ask too much and she almost kena bombak from me.

So in order to prevent unpleasant situation it's better to have a good planning. Furthermore, in Malaysia is a country which not a gay friendly country. Many people due to this matter had shifted from this circle because being a PLU life is difficult and there is so many obstacles to do. Okay it's enough of the not related topic and probably we will choose Cameron Highlands for our destination.

Disastrous CNY ( Part 3 - End)

Well folks I think enough of my sad story.

Here are some candid I had took during the trip.

I hope you guys are enjoy with the do enjoy pictures.

Disastrous CNY ( Part 2 )

This CNY period of times my phone are keep ringing, which make me more depress to back KL. This place is so darn boring and I almost die due to this boredom in this so called "Island of Pearl". This place is totally chaotic because it's flooded with people everywhere and every times.

The best parts is I had a so called "goddess aunt" nagging and preaching me like hell. I thought she really thought she is a "GuanYin Ma" or Buddha. Beside island hoping and eating there are nothing much to do, if you tell me I rather choose KL than Penang.

When to Penang I just like god of prosperity "Choy Shen Yeh" giving my hard earn fortune to my aunt and cousin as well because of their hospitality and all the entertainment are sponsor by me and my poor little brother.

Imagine eventhought I'm fat but it doesn't mean that I'm a fighter when come to eat or feast. They keep eating non stop until I wanted to give them award and I'm started to thinking are they ghost or demon who reject from hell, which wanted to fill up their glutton will.

This is just a very tiring journey as my mind are so empty like a zombie because this is not the place I wanted to visit in the first place. Yes I do visited a lot of places but I'm not happy at all and worse still this place make me sad and shed tears during CNY. The driving session is really killing me.

Somehow I rather being in my hubby side and misses his hugs, smell, sound and everything from him. Anyway I have to put a dot to my sad story and planned a head as well. I'm just felt sorry for my friend who had called me several times for a visit during CNY but I had failed them.

(To Be Continue)

Disastrous CNY ( Part 1 )

I hate 2009 CNY because my mood being spoil by my parent's. Those guys had con me to visit Penang for two days but ended up four days at outstation. Most of you guys must be wondering why I have to be so frustrated and complaining. Furthermore, there are my love one and I should be grateful can spend my times with them.

Indeed I'm very grateful for spending my times with my parents but CNY really meant a lot to me because it's not only Chinese celebration but it's also my third anniversaries with my babe after we are being tied for three years. That why I had stated very clear I only have two days to accompany them to their siblings house but ended up extra two days.

This period I also being thinking to complete one of my new year resolution, which is lay my hands on the passport I been talking for donkey years. We also have an argument regarding this matter and worse stilt my babe still throwing his tantrum towards me. I really don't wanted to dispute so much for this CNY incident.

In Penang, I'm pretty sad and cried for few times mostly is due to miss him so much because I never leave him more than two days consequently in a week. I'm also crying during in sleep, which is told by my parent, who keep asking me what happen. This is the most disastrous CNY I had in my whole life....Sigh ( To Be Continue )

Need A break

I really need a break to entertain my mind and feeling lately.
I felt tired with myself and my attitude which had cause me so many problem.
Argument seem like my best buddy always accompany me.
Anger is in my veins and too many dissatisfaction in my life.
Relationship seem like fluctuate and no improvement.
Real life is cruel and hard to achieve the best of the best.


Anyway I Need A Break And Retreat.

Will Be Back After CNY.

Bad Boy

Tremendously I feeling moody and I'm just a predator that could kills any moment or just let go my stress and tantrum like a volcano's eruption. This is an incident that I felt sorry for the girl that I had treat her badly and when I reckon back I'm far too over to treat her so cruel.

This incident, happen when one of my babe manage to get his friend to fetch us for lunch with the bitch along (The victim). Actually they all also my colleagues and we knew each other pretty well.

The incident started after we finish our lunch and proceed to the fruit stall to make purchase. Later my babe started a joke with the bitch because she is using umbrella in the restaurants, which is funny.

Later we join the cool jokes as well and the bitch is getting pissed and started to scold me after I ask her whether she is using umbrella at the beaches or not. Then she started to scold and nagging like an alien and my migraine started and Boom.

I started to scold her and curse her as well because she told everyone I LOVE HER and chase after her as well. Sorry to said I being very nasty and it's too late for my babe and other colleagues to stop me because I just burnout without signal.

The bitch are cried and everyone is blaming me and scare of me as well. Then the bitch shout at me and telling me that I had an attitude problem and guess what like I care. She really taught I'm his boy friend or what I really don't give it a damn.

She even instruct me to take back my words and apologize to her. For sure I'm apologize to her with unsatisfied manner and I even replied that the words I had spoken couldn't taken back because the words are already out of my mouth and impossible to take back...LoL.

I hated the bitch so much ever since this incident, always scold me for nothing. Even I talkative she also comments, she really thought I'm his Mr. Right but sorry to tell you that you are not my type and cup of coffee.. Please get lost bitch and balik la.

Lame and Bored

For many months I been incredible unmotivated and lazy being in work places or home as well. I been super unproductive and I'm not trying to abuse myself or take my life for granted but this is life and indeed is a transition period for me. Beside sight seeing and hang around in the malls there is nothing much I can do in my life.

Hence, it' sales everywhere and guess what? I been doubtful regarding the recession is really happening in Malaysia. In the matter of facts, every malls and shopping center are flooded with human beings. Somehow I prefer going out rather than stay at home facing the block and I'm a person cannot stay still.

I already feel pathetic with my life because there is no changes and yet feeling very demotivated with myself. Even the two books that I had brought from MPH I'm yet to read.. Haha just too lazy to read. This year I buy too many crappy stuff and sometimes being thinking I need to back on track and wake up.

Ever since I like to consume and it's times for me to save for my rainier days because my account balance is just too pathetic..Lol. I'm just a lousy man because my expenses is more than my income and I really need to tighten up my belt. Hey, have everyone have they suggestion to get more income, I hope god can grant me a grand prize lottery tickets..Haha. Anyway stay tuned and be strong.

Sharing And Mutual Trust

Very Inspire Article To Improve Trust.

The keyword of the day in this blog is "Mutual" which related to reciprocally acting of receiving, giving and interchanged. For me, mutual trust is just like a form of matrix equation contents possessed, experienced, or done by two or more persons or things at the same time more to common joint of sharing, trust, assistance, aversion and love.

Frankly speaking these criterion (Mutual Trust) had been faded ever single moment. I hate this parts when our relationship had come to this stages. Recall back from the past, I been wondering where is our naive and yet innocent love had gone. Perhaps, there is no fairy tales for me because normally the tales ended up with a good story ending but it's seem like I hardly to get one of those character.

We been tied down for almost 3 years but these later 2 years after the varsity life, our relationship seem to crack and we do argue and quarrel a lot this period. To precise we had not staying together for this past two years because we decided to stay with our parents after graduated in unversity. This is the main reason I felt not happy and even it had passed for 2 years but I still find that I am yet ready for this. Your smell, warmth, nag, love and caring still in my mind and very memorable indeed.

Yes, I been very lonely and empty lately. In my heart I do have many things that I wanted to share with you but always ended up with remain silent or undispute because don't wanted you to worry about me. Sorry babe, I knew most of the problem is kicked out by me and caused you so many trouble and stress. I Love You and tried to improve our relationship and mutual trust.

2009 New Year Resolution

There are so many think flew into my mind for 2009 New Year Resolution, it's seem like the times passed so fast just a flash and here come another new year. I am still 24 years old for now and and when I recap back my 2009 resolution draft I totally panic because the schedule is quite tight and I have no idea whether I achieve my resolution within this times series or not.

The first thing I wanted to do the most is tapau (resign) from my fucking bastard company (a very big company with an outlook only, in fact it have nothing special but just another ordinary china man company). But anyway my plan is to wait for my bonus which is few thousand only and just because nowadays life is very difficult so it's better for me to wait for it before I retreat. Hopefully, I make a right decision in the future and not to repeat the similar mistake that I have gone through in the past.

Second, kick off more kilograms of fat/ lard and loss some inches as well. I have gain weight in this past 2 month and I had loss 2 inches in size as well, weird is it. Anyway I will keep the hard work going because I understand the harder you work the more you gain and in fact the weight I had gains is the mass muscles had increase and not fat. I have to keep hard with my balance dietary and make sure not over eating like in the past because the fat is easy to built but to keep it slimmer is another version of story.

Take good care of my facial condition because the dirt's and oil that accumulate make us look older and messy. Have to grab hands on the more quality product soon before my skin condition is not very good especially got the scars. I think I need to get the expert advised in the skin center for a better solution. By year 2009 I need to lay hand on the Haba and Biotherm product to feed my skin.

Becoming more leng chai (handsome/ charming) in the future as a passport or insurance just in case my babe dump me. For now I am very damn lucky to have a leng chai boy friend by my side but who know in the future, he reckon to become back a straight guy and get other fag hag. I am just another fugly and chubby guys, who get a leng chai hubby for now but If I don't think of change I really don't know how long our relationship can last. Moreover, leng chai can get many advantages compare to someone who is not and myself definitely understand this fact very much because life is just cruel.

Following with a passport, paiseh (shy) to said is till have any of those pass but this year I am sure will apply one for this year because plan to go Phuket and Singapore as well. I do love travel and explore new things but due to my budget constraint I still need to work hard to achieve this aspect. Perhaps give myself some leisure times to flirt around...LoL. Moreover I do like shopping spree okay, it's better I can shop till I drop.

To sum up my new year resolution is very darn simple get a better job and work hard like mad cow. Earn better income and by this can I can continue play hard and happy as well. Becoming better man at least got improvement to show my babe my determination to change for him as well for myself. Earn big buck so that we can have a habitat together and as well getting married... LoL.

Suprise 2

Today I in a good mood because I have big plan to get going. Moreover, today also my holiday because my there are a factory shut down in my company. Later my babe called me regarding the stock that he suppose to send had been miss shipped and I straight away called my subordinate to rectifies the problem and give them instruction as well..(yes we work together and my position is slightly higher than he is ...LoL)

My babe are very down and told me he wanted to went back to the company to settle the matter. I told him just leave the problem to me and stop being influence with the matter. He is even too sad until he wanted to cancel the trip to Genting with his family. I know he is just emotional to talk such crap may be he is still blaming himself to let me down...haha. But seriously when he told me he wanted to leave his family to join the celebration I was worry and being counter with shock because his action will jeopardised my plan to give him surprise.

Till then under my good persuasion skill he finally give in and he is suspicious at all of my freaky action...(next time the Oscar Award goes to me...LoL). I wanted to buy him somethings, which is the jacket from the Topshop that he keen but ended up buy nothing because the size is out of stock and worst stilt the whole PJ and KL full with chaotic where the road is hell jamming.

Later, around 8 p.m I starting to pick up the passenger and I am very eager to see him and miss him so much. I make sure my phone are switch off so my babe cannot manage to locate me with his friend finder services. The jam is getting better when I reach Middle Ring Road 2 (MRR2) and within 1 hour we reach Genting and normally only 45 minutes.

We are trap in Genting, when we in the journey to find a car park and it's took another 1 hour to get my car park..sigh. When we getting of the car and the ambient is so cool and I have to took two jacket to get warmth and smoke like a pig to keep warmth. When I reach Genting I called my babe and he pick up the call and asking him his location because my friend finder showed he is on the theme park and he told me he wasn't there but in First World Hotel instead.

Then I tell him I in the First World Hotel lobby and he said are you kidding me. I said nope honey you can use your friend finder to indicate my location. Later we meet and hang out at Genting and this place is so damn crowded and he is just manage put his hand on my shoulder because we are yet ready to show affectionate in the public because Malaysia is just not yet ready for homosexual and I should said it's homosexual is illegal in my country and I don't want to end up in a Lokap (Prison).

Both of us had leaving my friend after I give them signal I need to go for date. We managed to gamble in the casino and my babe had done something which is very embarrassing till we needed to leave to other table for another sessions..LoL. My dear babe you are really funny and I almost choke to die when I think of that embarrass moment. Later meet up my friends and we proceed to the fireworks place and there crowd are even extreme and I almost ended up fighting with a barbarian who keep pushing me and I started to lost my patient and tear him off in his face...very daring huh?

The fireworks are splendid and it last for 15 minutes and I felt joyful that my babe are beside me to witness theuthopia sceneric with me. In my mind I keep thinking it is good to be true if we can stay together in this way. The ambient is very cool and my babe forgotten to bring along his jacket, I noticed that he is very cool and in no times I stripe off one of the jacket for him to stay warmth. Later we hang around in the casino after we had split with my friends and continue to have a little walk around Genting. After a short meal and supper, he finally needed to leave and myself when back to the car to have a rest while waiting for my friends to gamble.

That all my suprise to my dear, I know the journey is quite plain and boring as well. But the main point is in need him around me and miss him so much and both of us really cherish the moment very much. I love you babe and before I ended this session here with some snap shot from the event.